It’s been a busy few days for me, and I can’t really complain. It has been really good to not sit around and mope, because no one ever got better by moping. Like I said the other day, back in the saddle again.
Tuesday night I had a little scare, which led me to my doctor yesterday. I was really worried that my incisions had an infection, and there was some redness. I haven’t been much of a worrier during this, because weird shit happens during chemo and after but this made me put in a call. The last thing that I needed was an infection in one or both boobs.
Wednesday was eventful to say the least. The morning started with me doing a running leap into a brand new screen door thinking that Dylan had wound up in the pool. I broke it and it wasn’t even 24 hours old. Good times. There should be reflective tape on these screens, I swear I thought it was open. I saw my doctor in the afternoon, thankfully it was all good. Sometimes some of the material used in the procedure can cause some redness. The warmth to the touch is basically my body regulating and adapting, which is all normal. I went alone to my appointment and he missed my mom, it was rather cute. Anyway he was rather pleased about NO RADIATION! Who wouldn’t be!
Last night I had a much needed girls night with my lady friends. We went to my friends new beautiful house and ate and ate and ate and gossiped and drank. I didn’t get home until 11, when was the last time I was home that late? I was greeted on my street by a coyote that is how late I was home! We had a great time, can’t remember the last time that I was surrounded by such amazing friends and talked that much!
This morning brought a little smile to my face. As we know hair loss is normal during chemo, and I was lucky to keep what turns out to be around 60% of the hair on my head. To not have to shave my legs for the past 5 months may have been the best part of cancer. To my surprise, this morning as I was putting on lotion, I saw that my leg hair has grown back. This might not mean much to you, but it means that my body is coming back around and things are moving and grooving again. I looked in the mirror and smiled. I haven’t done that in a while. Off to Rite Aid to buy a razor today.
I just want to put this out there for you all who say I am so strong and positive, I really thank you for saying that. I may seem super positive and upbeat, which I am trying to be, that doesn’t mean that inside I am not still emotional. After all it has been an insane 5 months that no one ever expected. I am sick of hearing it too, I know. To see this all come back full circle is insane and I am just trying to be as positive and normal as I can. With your love and support it has brought me this far. Again, I thank you.
xo,
Jessie