Tomorrow is the day, the big day for chemo #2 when I step into the “ring.” I am ready for my fight, and I fight like a girl. A badass girl, but a girl. When I tried to box with a trainer once, I sprained my wrist and had to get a cortisone shot. Shit, I might be fucked. Again, I digress. But this cancer has nothing on me, right?
Fight, Fight, Fight! That’s what I will do tomorrow. I will fight the pain in my head from the -32 cold placed on my head, fucking Rod better have put those in the freezer. I left him a message, he’s dodging me. Fucker. I have my heating blanket ready to go, and I need to get an old sweatshirt to cut a hole in. Why you ask? Because cancer patients and nurses are so smart that they came up with the idea to cut a hole where my port is so I can stay warm while getting treatment. Brilliant I tell you. The hard part is deciding which sweatshirt is worth ruining, because I have a weird connection to all of them.
I’ll of course bring my computer, iPad and kindle with me tomorrow. Lets be honest, I won’t use anything or be able to concentrate on a show. I can pretend, but doubtful. If you have suggestions on shows to bingewatch, please send because I am stumped and OITNB doesn’t start for a few weeks!
What has been freaking me out though is my port. What if by chance they implanted this device in my arm and it isn’t really leading anywhere? What if it is just in my arm and they will put drugs into my system without a targeted location. Am I wrong to think this? Probably, and I am a total worrywart. Ugh, stress.
The last thing we need to discuss is my theme song. Yea, I want a cancer theme. I have narrowed it down to three. Here they go with sound clips attached:
I am the Warrior (ok totally about love but whatever good title) – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vJ68ovUkw58
This is my fight song – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xo1VInw-SKc
Eye of the tiger – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=btPJPFnesV4
Leave your suggestions in the comments!