Let’s get ready to rumble

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Tomorrow is the day, the big day for chemo #2 when I step into the “ring.”  I am ready for my fight, and I fight like a girl.  A badass girl, but a girl.  When I tried to box with a trainer once, I sprained my wrist and had to get a cortisone shot.  Shit, I might be fucked.  Again, I digress.  But this cancer has nothing on me, right?

Fight, Fight, Fight! That’s what I will do tomorrow.  I will fight the pain in my head from the -32 cold placed on my head, fucking Rod better have put those in the freezer.  I left him a message, he’s dodging me.  Fucker. I have my heating blanket ready to go, and I need to get an old sweatshirt to cut a hole in.  Why you ask? Because cancer patients and nurses are so smart that they came up with the idea to cut a hole where my port is so I can stay warm while getting treatment.  Brilliant I tell you.  The hard part is deciding which sweatshirt is worth ruining, because I have a weird connection to all of them.

I’ll of course bring my computer, iPad and kindle with me tomorrow. Lets be honest, I won’t use anything or be able to concentrate on a show.  I can pretend, but doubtful.  If you have suggestions on shows to bingewatch, please send because I am stumped and OITNB doesn’t start for a few weeks!

What has been freaking me out though is my port.  What if by chance they implanted this device in my arm and it isn’t really leading anywhere? What if it is just in my arm and they will put drugs into my system without a targeted location.  Am I wrong to think this? Probably, and I am a total worrywart.  Ugh, stress.

The last thing we need to discuss is my theme song.  Yea, I want a cancer theme.  I have narrowed it down to three.  Here they go with sound clips attached:

I am the Warrior (ok totally about love but whatever good title) – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vJ68ovUkw58

This is my fight song – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xo1VInw-SKc

Eye of the tiger – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=btPJPFnesV4

Leave your suggestions in the comments!

xo,

Jessie

20 thoughts on “Let’s get ready to rumble”

  1. “This is my fight song” for sure!!! You are going to kick cancers ass!!

    As far as shows go Silicon Valley!

    Keep going Mama, and I know your a BAD ASS!
    Xoxoxo

  2. Hi Jessie! Great songs!
    Also, thought about: CHUMBAWAMBA singing Tubthumping!
    ‘I get knocked down, but I get up again, you are never going to keep me down’!
    I can see your smiling face on that one, too!

  3. I second “This is My Fight Song”! And don’t stress you are the only one Rod has been thinking about ALL week – he’s just playing hard to get 🙂

    As for shows, I get all my reco’s from YOU so if you’re out of ideas then I am toast!!! Have you seen the movie Eddie the Eagle? It was really cute and mindless…Hugh Jackman wasn’t awful to look at either.

    xoxx

    1. This Is My Fight Song!!! Love it and it’s absolutely perfect! And I totally agree with Zack….most fucks in a cancer post. 😉 Thats why we love you!!!! Keep it up Jessie- you are a warrior!!!!!! Love you to the moon and back!

  4. Definitely this is my fight song!! That song will be playing in my head all day. Best of luck tomorrow – will be thinking happy thoughts for you tomorrow (and everyday!)

  5. Song: Fight Like a Girl by Bomshel
    Something warm and human fuzzy to binge watch: Friday Night Lights or Parenthood both streaming on Netflix
    Go get em, Jessie!
    Fight Like A Girl Lyrics
    Little girl alone on the playground
    Tired of gettin’ teased and gettin’ pushed around
    Wishin’ she was invisible to them
    She ran home cryin’ why do they hate me?
    And Mama wiped the tears and said baby
    You’re brave and you’re beautiful
    So hold your head high don’t ever let ’em define the light in your eyes
    Love yourself, give them hell you can take on this world
    You just stand and be strong and then fight like a girl
    At thirty-one she was wheelin’ and dealin’
    Kept on hittin’ that same glass ceilin’
    She was never gonna be one of the boys, no
    She coulda gave up on her ambition
    And spent the rest of her life just wishin’
    Instead she listened to her mama’s voice sayin’
    Hold your head high don’t ever let ’em define the light in your eyes
    Love yourself, give them hell you can take on this world
    You just stand and be strong and then fight like a girl
    Oh with style and grace have faith and take names
    Ten years of climbin’ that ladder oh but money and power don’t matter
    When the doctor said the cancer spread
    She holds on tight to her husband and babies
    And says this is just another test God gave me
    And I know just how to handle this
    I’ll hold my head high
    I’ll never let this define the light in my eyes
    Love myself, give it hell
    I’ll take on this world yes I stand and be strong no I’ll never give up
    I will conquer with love and I’ll fight like a girl
    Oh yeah

  6. Hi Jessie,
    I’m a friend of Karen and Larry. I think your blog is terrific although I wish you didn’t have to write it.
    I’m sending you good vibes from the east coast.
    Good luck tomorrow.
    Fight on!!
    Lesley
    P. S. I vote fight song.

  7. Thinking of you, and so proud of you! Hope you’re feeling Ok!
    Some shows- the night manager on amc – amazing and only 6 episodes. And The Americans !!!

    Sending a hug!
    H

  8. Sing them all!! And know you got all of it. Your sense of humor is one of your many strengths and will get you through anything. In the meantime, should I send you a fart machine. Could work well with a few nurses? Thinking of you today!!!

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