Today is hydration day, I am sitting here in my chair getting two hours of fluids and my Neulasta shot (this makes sure that my blood cells regenerate). I will be honest and say that today hit me a little harder than my first infusion. I am a little more anxious and nauseated, but I think the nausea is really due to the anxiety. I asked for some Zantac in my IV to help with that. I will start taking my prescription meds tonight if it doesn’t get slightly better.
Jana came with me for my appointment, and I finally got to meet my pen pal Marissa! She was here today getting hydration also. It is so nice to finally put a face to the email. On another note, I wanted to relax while here, but there is a translator over speakerphone translating Arabic for a patient. It is so lovely to listen to this LOUDLY.
Into the weekend we go, I am a little more down in the shitter today and I just keep reminding myself that I have cancer and it is totally normal. Fucked up beyond belief, but fucked up. I can only hope that I will be able to be around my babies as much as possible this weekend before it really hits the fan by monday. One day at a time, one step at a time, one minute at a time. That’s all I can do. And breathe.
Thanks again for all of the good wishes and sentiments on seeing me with Cappy. He will return in a solid 3 weeks!
xo,
Jessie
p.s. Someone remind me to not play with Snapchat while I am getting an infusion. There was NO recollection of taking a picture of my cap with a crown on it and then Instagramming!
Stay strong and enjoy spending time with Asher and Dylan this weekend. And like you said, one day at time, one hour at a time and one minute at a time. 😉 You’ve got this and have SO much love and support surrounding you!!!!! Love you to the moon and back!!!!