Rockstar status, denied

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Today is Erev Rosh Hashanah, the Jewish New Year.  It is a time for celebration, reflection and joy.  Boy could the Brown and Gersten families use some joy and good news this year!  I think I will smother my entire apple and challah slice in honey to ensure that I have a super duper sweet year.

Last night was a bit tougher than the night before, but not terribly so.  I think that I fell into a deep sleep, and tried to roll onto my side.  That is nearly impossible because these drains and pain just won’t let that happen!  I forgot how much I hate sleeping on my back.  Even through both pregnancies I managed to not sleep on my back.  It is also really annoying to remember to take all 4 meds I need and then have to space them out.  Apparently you can’t take Percocet too closely to my antibiotic or I will get nauseated, then there’s Ativan and Lexapro.  I’m a pharmacy with drains.  The good news is that I was able to get up alone and not wake Zack up this morning.

I might have overdone my movement yesterday, it’s like forgetting you can’t do something and then try to reach and instead have alligator arms that don’t let you get the glass.  Yea that happened a few times, even with my drinking glass.  Every day a little better, every day a little stronger.  The drains are getting less and less, so I hope Tuesday I get some of them out.

I’ve been called a Rock star during my entire treatment.  I don’t feel like one, no one would ever want my autograph.  I am just a 35-year-old mother and wife who is 100% completely honest on how much Breast Cancer sucks donkey ass and changes your life.  The whole reason for this blog is to be open and honest with you all in the hopes I help someone.  So you can think of me as a rock star, I just consider myself honest.  And funny.  If anything, I think cancer made me funnier!   So who knows what will happen to my blog when I am finished with it (Don’t worry I am not stopping), but hopefully I can use it as a too to help those suffering get through this a little better.

With that I bid you adieu.  It’s Sunday football and I am not going to watch.  I have terrible 80’s movies on my DVR instead!




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