Well I'll be damned

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So, the proverbial cat is out of the bag, and now y'all know I have cancer.  Thank you from the top of my head to the bottom of my toes for your love and well wishes.  I don't want any form of a pity party, but cupcakes are always welcome (don't tell my ass that though).  

This is a shitty road to travel and it won't be fast.  It will take time and a lot of energy and help.  Help- something that I NEVER like taking from anyone.  That is probably the first thing that is truly hard for me.  Saying YES.  I hate saying yes.  I hate taking from people.  But alas, I will succumb to the help because that's the only way I will get through this.  So to everyone who has sent things, offered to pick up my kids (you'll regret that one), bring food or just be my Frank Concierge, I thank you and love you.  
Its funny how this happens, sometimes you feel so insignificant and lonely then all of a sudden people are popping up everywhere.  Ive said it before and I'll say it again.  THANK YOU.
Enough of this sentimental bullshit.  Lets talk the good stuff!  I washed my hair today!  With these cold caps I cannot wash it every day, this is very distressing to me.  But today was the day and let me tell you, I babied the shit out of it.  I combed it so gently, I felt like I was a baby lol!  But seriously, I will get into a groove of washing it and making sure not too much falls out.  The success rate is about 30% thinning, I can deal with that!
The nausea isn't so bad today, the doctors and nurses said that I should start to feel badly today if I do at all.  They pumped me with so much Emend and other shit that hopefully it will stop it.  Tomorrow I can take Zofran if it gets bad.  I'm like an old lady now, who has a pill box and calendar in my medicine cabinet to make sure that I don't miss a dose.  That would be bad!  
I am just going to relax today and get used to the “new” me.  The temporary me.  The bump in my road me.  So if you feel like reaching out, I am here.  
Again, thanks for your love and support.  Now I'm getting off my sappy soap box.  I have shit TV to watch because I can!!!

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