So, the proverbial cat is out of the bag, and now y'all know I have cancer. Thank you from the top of my head to the bottom of my toes for your love and well wishes. I don't want any form of a pity party, but cupcakes are always welcome (don't tell my ass that though).
This is a shitty road to travel and it won't be fast. It will take time and a lot of energy and help. Help- something that I NEVER like taking from anyone. That is probably the first thing that is truly hard for me. Saying YES. I hate saying yes. I hate taking from people. But alas, I will succumb to the help because that's the only way I will get through this. So to everyone who has sent things, offered to pick up my kids (you'll regret that one), bring food or just be my Frank Concierge, I thank you and love you.
Its funny how this happens, sometimes you feel so insignificant and lonely then all of a sudden people are popping up everywhere. Ive said it before and I'll say it again. THANK YOU.
Enough of this sentimental bullshit. Lets talk the good stuff! I washed my hair today! With these cold caps I cannot wash it every day, this is very distressing to me. But today was the day and let me tell you, I babied the shit out of it. I combed it so gently, I felt like I was a baby lol! But seriously, I will get into a groove of washing it and making sure not too much falls out. The success rate is about 30% thinning, I can deal with that!
The nausea isn't so bad today, the doctors and nurses said that I should start to feel badly today if I do at all. They pumped me with so much Emend and other shit that hopefully it will stop it. Tomorrow I can take Zofran if it gets bad. I'm like an old lady now, who has a pill box and calendar in my medicine cabinet to make sure that I don't miss a dose. That would be bad!
I am just going to relax today and get used to the “new” me. The temporary me. The bump in my road me. So if you feel like reaching out, I am here.
Again, thanks for your love and support. Now I'm getting off my sappy soap box. I have shit TV to watch because I can!!!
xo,
Jessie