Happy friggin 4th

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Happy 4th of July! Ha!  Yea so happy over here.  I hate today and am depressed.  I figure not many people will read this today because you are out having fun, so I can say that.  I wish I were out having fun instead of having to hide from my kids while I get hydrated.  Sidenote- Beanna can stay, she sets up and leaves for about an hour.

It has been a rough weekend of symptoms, but mostly I just cured them with Zofran and pot.  Not a bad combo.  This cycle is definitely BETTER than last, but different also.  I just wish it were over and I can’t honestly see myself going through another 3 rounds of this shit.  But I have to and I will, right?

I see all of you having a blast with your friends and families this weekend, and I won’t lie, it breaks my heart.  I wish I were splashing in a pool, in New York, eating hotdogs, having fun.  Instead I am in bed wishing for my nausea to go away and my life to go back to normal.  Sorry for being Debbie Downer, but it’s true.

I wish that it was cold and rainy and it was December.  December is when I will most likely be done with my big surgeries and who doesn’t like Christmastime? Instead of being Christmas, I will just watch Elf on TV, because it keeps playing.  It’s the 4th of July, yet Christmas movies are on.  Go figure.

“The best way to spread Christmas cheer, is to sing loud for all to hear!”

-Buddy the Elf

xo,

Jessie

5 thoughts on “Happy friggin 4th”

  1. We are not having fun either! No hot dogs, no bbq, no parties. Nope! Not even a red, white and blue cupcake. No sirree. We drove back to the hot, sticky, muggy city at noon. We are flying to LA tomorrow! And you know Larry! 9am flight. We will be camped out at Newark by 4:00am. (Erica and I already have a plan to slip him a Xanax over his spaghetti tonight). Can’t wait to see you all!!!! Xoxox. K and L

  2. Girl you are 100% entitled to feel that way and own it! Just remember the pain and depression this year will bring you many many many more fun happy holidays celebrating with your family and friends! Keep up the fight

  3. Jesse
    I’m home, doing nothing … And actually loving it. So I’m with you. I’m thinking of you!

  4. So sorry, Jessie. Just think of those people getting all schribbled up in that water!!! Sunburned!! Etc. would you REALLY want that??? Hell yes you would… And all in due time you will have it. My father-in-law used to say “all in due time. You just put one foot in front of the other”!!!! December WILL be here before you know it. I admire you, Jessie and think you are terrific. Hugs

  5. Hi Jessie,
    It’s Lesley, a friend of Karen and Larry’s So sorry you are going through this. I know Karen and Larry are on their way to you tomorrow and if anyone can make you smile i’m sure they can.
    Sending you love from the east coast friends that you know and the ones that you have yet to meet.
    Fight on!

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